The Sense of ‘Me’
Beneath the assumption ‘that you are the body’ is an even deeper one. The idea ‘that you are the body’ is predicated on the assumption that you exist, that you are a ‘me’ — a separate, individual self. The most intimate sense of your self is often this sense of ‘me’, which is a limited and incomplete sensing of your self. It doesn’t include the far reaches of your greater Being. This sense of a separate ‘me’ is not bad or wrong; it’s just limited and incomplete.
In the midst of a very profound and large experience of truth, the sense of your self can become so large and inclusive that it no longer has much of a sense of being your Being. When you awaken to the oneness of all things, the sense of a ‘me’ can thin out quite dramatically. If you are the couch you are sitting on, the clouds in the sky, and everything else, then it simply doesn’t make sense to call it all ‘me’. If it is so much more than what you usually take yourself to be, then the term ‘me’ is just too small.
In a profound experience of truth, the sense of ‘me’ softens and expands to such a degree that there is only a slight sense of ‘me’ as a separate self remaining, perhaps just as the observer of the vastness of truth. Beyond these profound experiences of the truth, is the truth itself. When you are in touch with the ultimate truth and the most complete sense of Being, there is nothing separate remaining to sense itself — there is no experience and no experiencer, no Heart, and no sense of self. There is only Being.
The experience of bigger truths and even the biggest truth doesn’t obliterate your capacity to experience a small truth and therefore, a separate self. But with many experiences of shifting in and out of a small sense of self, this separate self feels more like a suit of clothes you can take on and off rather than something permanent.
As you move in and out of many dimensions of Being and even beyond experience itself, the boundaries between all of these dimensions become very permeable and inconsequential. It turns out that these boundaries are just thoughts anyway. They don’t actually separate anything.
The question isn’t how to get rid of a small sense of self, but what is the sense of your self like? Is it fixed or is it constantly shifting — opening and closing, expanding and contracting, tightening and loosening, and sometimes even disappearing altogether?
The sense of a separate self can therefore be loosely held even though it continues to contract appropriately when a small truth is triggered. What is your sense of self like right now? What is true right now? Your Heart is the only guide you need for exploring even the biggest truths.
~ From: Living from the Heart (part 2). by Nirmala . (Sent in by Elena — Thanks Elena)