The Seer

I had quite a huge pain-body. When I first came to know Eckhart Tolle closely, I thought that this is going to be absolutely wonderful, because when my pain-body comes up, I have someone who can be totally present and with me through it all. What I found was that if I remained a little bit present, he could stay with me, but if I went totally unconscious and totally identified with my pain-body, I would see him walk out the door.

This would infuriate me further. When this happened, it was the best thing for me because I learned that only “I” could dissolve my pain-body.

If you’re conscious enough to stay present with your pain-body, then you will watch it dissolve. Don’t let the ego come in because the ego will say “I am more awake now so I can stay here.” When you’re fully present, you won’t have those thoughts. You will just find yourself there holding the space. Just being still. Some words may come out, maybe not.

Staying present in your relationship with your parents can be both a great challenge and the ultimate practice. Ram Dass used to say, “If you think you’re enlightened, then go visit your parents for a week or two.”

If you can stay present (in the company of a critical or complaining parent), then you’re holding their pain-body in spacious awareness. Your being in awareness will help dissolve their pain-body … but only if you can stay present while you’e with them.

Now, if you find that your pain-body gets activated when their pain-body is active, and you can still be present and hold the space for your pain-body and their pain body, then great! You are dissolving both your pain-bodies. However; if you find yourself slipping into unconsciousness, or, in other words, identifying with the pain-body, and if you still have that little bit of conscious presence, then remove yourself from the situation.

Once you feel your own pain-body being activated, and we can all know this from experience, once the pain-body is active, you want a fight! And this is what we do when we are totally unconscious. It is the feeding of the pain body, it is not only fed by your thoughts, but also by the other person’s thoughts. We make it grow and grow.

I remember sitting in a cafe having tea. There was a young girl at the table next to me, who looked like she was with her father. She appeared to be in a lot of pain. I could feel the energy of her pain-body around her. I thought about moving, but it didn’t. Instead, I stayed present with the energy.

There is no division with energy, so you can feel other peoples energy around you. I don’t know how long it took, maybe 15 minutes. I wasn’t judging or naming, just feeling the energy. Suddenly, the energy felt as if it was about to burst and as I felt that, it did and she broke out in laughter. Then she and her father were laughing together. So it is possible to just stay present, not in a conceptual way, but be there as the witnessing presence.

~ by Kim Eng