The Invisible You
The important thing in self-inquiry is to not change anything. Don’t try to make the mind still, don’t try to stop the thoughts. You don’t have to do anything. Just be aware of the sounds in the room. Be aware of the feelings and sensations in the body. Be aware of any thoughts arising, passing, and falling. If you check carefully there is awareness of your body, there is awareness of thoughts, there is awareness of feelings. There is awareness of sound, there is awareness of the greyness of your eye lids. But the interesting part is that when we stop and check:
Where is the experiencer? Where is the one watching the body? Where is the one watching the feelings? Where is the one aware of the thoughts?
Right now there is something that is experiencing something. Something is experiencing your feelings, your thoughts, and your body. Something is experiencing the sound of my voice. So if you are something that is aware of the body, you can’t therefore be the body. If you are something that is aware of the thoughts, you can’t be the thoughts, you can’t be the feelings or the emotions. And it’s as if you don’t exist, it’s as if you are invisible.
Mind is in a point. To believe that you are only thoughts, feelings, emotions, beliefs, or circumstances, your attention must be focused in a sharp point. Who you are is not in any point but more in every point at the same time and what the points appear in. So you just totally, absolutely, completely relax your attention. You let it un-focus, so that it feels like it’s everywhere. Now this is very simply resting in who you are. You are making no effort.
You can’t see or feel You as a separate thing. The closest you can say is, I am. Nothing or Everything. If you check in this one second of resting, is there any problem here? Is there anything missing? Is there something like peace here? Is there some gentle sweetness?
That’s who you are.
~ From: Unseasonable Happiness, by Alex Vartman.
BTW: Alex Vartman comes originally from Adelaide, South Australia, and was greatly helped toward spiritual awakening by Gangaji. He has lived and worked as spiritua teacher in Skandinavia for the past ten years or so, but is presently touring eastern Australia offering satangs. For more details, contact >>>Clearsight.
