To Himanth
Hello Himanth,
I had a look at your Web site and found it quite interesting. You are obviously an earnest spiritual seeker and I have the impression that you have begun to awaken to your true identity.
It seems to me, that at this stage, however, that the truth you have begun to glimpse remains as thoughts or concepts in your mind. To make further progress toward spiritual maturity and fulfillment, you need to move beyond the activity of your mind into the internal realm of awareness.
The truth is, of course, that you and I are essentially That which is aware of our thoughts, our doubts, our fears, our frustrations, our emotions, and our sensory perceptions.
It’s not just that you HAVE awareness, the awesome fact is that you ARE Awareness or Consciousness ItSelf.
This Awareness that we are is not a ‘thing’ or an ‘object’ that the mind can imagine, or picture, or define, or compare with something else, or even think about … it is the formless or spacious dimension that is capacity for everything that we are aware of.
Most people are unaware or unconscious of this ’spiritual’ dimension within and are constantly caught up in their thoughts and feelings which get translated into the actions of their life. As you ‘awaken’ to the truth, you will become aware of your thoughts and feelings without necessarily becoming involved in them. In quiet contemplation you will find YourSelf the calm observer or witness of your mental activity … this is the first step toward full awakening.
The second step comes when you can turn your attention (effortlessly) away from the objects of your awareness to Awareness ItSelf. You become aware of your constant, unchanging, ageless Awareness. You become conscious of that Consciousness that contains the whole of your world.
When you abide, even if it’s only for a minute or two, in this Awareness and simply be the witness of whatever Awareness is aware of, then you are present, you are consciously present with your true Self or Essential Nature.
When you are present, you will notice that everything that appears in your awareness comes and goes, it is constantly in a state of flux, it is alway in a process of change … but you will also notice that the Awareness does NOT come and go, that it is constant, without limits, without definable qualities,that it is infinite (and eternal).
You will also notice, that while your humanness as ‘Himanth’ is very personal, unique and temporal, the Awareness that sees or observes this humanness is impersonal, universal, and beyond space and time. Your essential Beingness is the same as ‘my’ Beingness, and is the Beingness of every form in the universe. We are all an expression or manifestation of that One Life or Beingness.
So, Himanth, to surrender simply meant to accept, without reservation (by the mind) what you find youself, your true Self, to be … Awareness.
The egoic mind, because of its conditioning since infancy, will try to get you to cling to the idea that you are ’something’ … even a ’spiritual something’, but the truth is that we are much, much more than that. The eternal Awareness that we are is not a ‘thing’ … you can call it Spirit, God, Brahman, the true Self or the no-self … it doesn’t matter, but when you accept wholeheartedly that this is What you are … then suddenly, you will see that you, the real You, are Everything.
Once this is seen or understood from the heart (or in your bones, so to speak), you will be able to enter fully into being ‘Himanth’ and play out the role that Consciousness (your Essential Self) has planned for you. You will then discover what it means to be truly free in every area of your life-experience … because at last you know, that you are none other than Life ItSelf.
