From Orthodoxy to Paradoxy
The whole place is you. It’s like the functioning mind, the controlling mind, wants an orthodoxy. It wants to land somewhere. It wants one place. So we’ve got to move from orthodoxy to paradoxy. We’ve got to move to, “Is awareness both nowhere, vast and infinite and also here?” It’s like the field is awake and it’s also awake in every particular place.
It’s like the universe creates all these planets and solar systems, amazing things are going on all the time; we know that, right? So where is the brain of the universe? Where is it located? We think because this is here and we feel like it’s here that this is where the intelligence is
coming from.
But when we get that it’s just the way it is anyhow, it’s more like quantum metaphor: that it’s already living this life, and it was or we didn’t think it was, and we’re just suffering more trying to control it.
The scary thing is that losing control doesn’t mean that we’re out of control, it means we are just able to be ordinary — just ourselves without the extra effort. Without trying to get it right or fearing getting it wrong. Without struggling to be somebody some day because we already are. Without fearing judgment and shame and guilt of this little one who is judging itself and afraid of the judgment coming outside.
But somehow finding that innocent sense of this natural being that has this quality of wisdom and compassion naturally, that knows that it’s okay. That there is no loss of the normal functioning civilized behavior. There is even a finding of what we thought was out there, which is some peace, some rest, some love that is who we all are already. Yes?
Loch Kelly — New York City, June 9 2006